Girl Next Door

Out of Sudden

2011-10-05T20:30:00.005+08:00

Yeah . . .

Updating blog after few months later .

Sorry for the super late up

dates .

Introducing - Akhbar .

I've known him for quite a while . . . Been friends with him for like 2 and half years .

Didn't did I expect we'll be so close and slowly up to the next level of our relationship .

He is great .
It's easier for me to talk to him . .

Even-though there's argue and such ...... I know , we'll still go thru this together .

Insya allah ........

With the bless of our parents .

We might go to the next level of our relationship ..

See you soon

Why ?

2011-05-28T16:35:00.002+08:00

Silently making step back move first .

I think it's better .

I just couldn't take it anymore .

I think now , is the best that I could do NOW

Thanks a lot .

Breakdown at last ................

2011-05-09T20:52:00.003+08:00

I don't know what's your motive of doing this to me .

I'm sad .

I don't know what to do .

I'm scared .

I NEED A BREAK RIGHT NOW .

Go away from people ...

I'm can't answer all the unanswered question .

I'm fucking sad right now .

I need a fucking break ...

I just couldn't take this any longer ...

WHAT ?!

Breaking down .....

How am I suppose to be strong .................................?

Can I ?

2011-05-01T12:17:00.002+08:00

It's hard for me to say his my ex-boyfriend ,

where else , I still treat him as my boyfriend ...

I'm trying to be strong , but I think I will ...

I can't

But I hope ..

Depends everything is not something to me .

I want to ...... I hope to .......

He is the person I want to live with ...

Losing him is ................................................................

S.I.L.E.N.T

2011-04-27T21:41:00.002+08:00

Silence ...

It's the only way I can do .

I don't understand what's happening between us .

I don't understand what's going on .

What does everything means ?

I like it .

What happened this few days is what I like ..

I can never forget .

I hope everything is gonna be fine ..

I couldn't understand what I'm doing .

Why I'm doing this ?

Sunny Day

2011-04-24T16:33:00.002+08:00

Super hot day .

Super tired day .

Couldn't stand it myself .

Yesterday was AWESOMENESS ......

Finish work at 1pm at City hall , meet up my friends

we went for SHOPPING...

After that , when off to JB and when home so late ...

Sooo super tired .

Today , when shopping again , and it's super hot ......

Even though I'm trying to move on .

Still i'll drop from the bottom .

I still love you , how can I not forget you just like that .

You are my life .

I can be strong , but I'm not strong enough to stand up straight .

It really takes time for me to built up everything .

I know I can .

But I still need motivation in everything .

I still need opinion , feedbacks .

I need all those things to bring me up ...

:) Look at the bright side at least .

P.S : I can't say it everywhere , here is the only place I can filled up my spaces .. I MISS YOU .

I MISS YOU SO MUCH , darling .

2011-04-20T21:13:00.002+08:00

Words left unsaid .

Everything in every way is incomplete in my life .

Shouldn't I need to motivate myself when I'm in this situation .

p.s : I still love you very much .

No more .......................

2011-04-11T20:33:00.002+08:00

I can't relate myself .

What's going on with my life ...

I really can't tell right now .

No matter what , the pillar of my life had just gone .

I got no one to complain to ...

Thanks for being there for me ?

What's that suppose to mean ?

What about me ?

Your're not being there for me .

I can just breakdown anytime , anywhere ..

Don't you freaking know ?

My feelings ?

OMG !

My bad though ...

You need freedom I guess ...

I'm happy if you're happy ....

Seems that you're moving forward .....

I guess I can't ....

I need time to do it ..

Might be a year ? 2 years ? 3 years ? 4 maybe ?

I don't know .....

I hope i'm strong to face this reality ...

Insya allah ..

I'm trying to be strong ..

Faith lead me into everything ...

World is not gonna end if I'm not with him ..

I know ...

I will ....

But I'm scared ...............

Panic mode on !

2011-02-27T18:24:00.002+08:00

Oh no !

Panic mode on ......

15 March is like around the corner .

I just couldn't imagine what's gonna happen .

Hashik's birthday is just around the corner .

I don't know what should I do for him

Alamak ......

I need ideas please ...

P.S : What should I buy for him ?

New post . New post . New Post .

2011-02-26T20:42:00.002+08:00

Yeah ..

So far so good .

Trying to stay focus as I can .

Trying to stay strong whenever I can .

Oh yes ,

I'm in a confusing state .

I'm trying to follow the flow ...

Hopefully I can .

Being not been loved by someone ..

It's totally a difficult thing that I can cope .

It's really hard for me .

I can be sad and happy at the same time .

I can even be happy , sad and angry at the same time .

I don't even know myself .

I don't even know how to start my life .

Welcome to the world .

I've been blind .

The world now is cruel .

P.S : I REALLY DO LOVE YOU DARLING .

What if ?

2011-02-22T20:33:00.002+08:00

There's alot of "what if" in my mind lately .

I'm just scared .

Works becoming harder and harder .

Hopefully i'll get it right this time .

P.S : Did I just make him happy ?

Indeed .

2011-02-21T21:39:00.003+08:00

Just couldn't get enough of him .

Every time when I see him , I wish I could say it

But I need to control everything in my mind .

I don't need to say it out loud .

I know , I need motivation .

Slowly but surely I know I can ..

I can't be much happier that now .

I just need to treasure the moment .

Hopefully everything gonna be okay .

P.S : Motivation .

A girl with a brokenheart

2011-02-18T15:20:00.002+08:00

I'll just stay up late night sometime to wait for you call .

Simply leaving you like that I don't think I can .

I'm not mature enough to think wisely .

I can't make up my mind .

What the hell am I thinking .

I know leaving the shit out of me it's really not fucking me .

I can't

Mixed feeling I'm having is on and off .

Sometime , I want to be independent but I can't .

But , I have to encourage myself in anyway I can .

I believe whatever I do , I do it for me .

I can't always depend on others to support me as well .

Problems coming in after one another .

Supporting myself is always what I do .

It's hard to have a perfect relationship when one doesn't co-operate .

Each time I know , we won't make it ......

I keep lying to myself that I can do it .

I would make it .

But making things up alone , doesn't make a different .

It takes two hand to clap ...

I'm trying hard .

I'm trying really really hard right now .

After years I've been together , why not this last chance .........

Hopefully it'll works .

P.S : Pray hard people .

Bad Day

2011-02-17T13:53:00.002+08:00

Looking at my old friend lying on bed .

I just couldn't help it .

I breakdown .

I'm sad , why of all people must be him .

We can't predict everything is alright .

While he was happily messaging my bestfriend and the next day it happen this way .

All we can do now is to pray .

Please don't go yet Taufiq ...

I'm sure you are strong enough to pull through everything .

Work started on coming Monday .

Pray for me that i'll do well this time .

I need to be independent in every way I can .

Pulling everything back to place .

I know I'm strong .

P.S : Wish me luck friends . :)

Back on track

2011-02-14T20:40:00.007+08:00

I'm trying to get back on track .

Well , in a difficult situation .

I know , i can't do this alone .

I need guidance for me to get me back on track

To meet someone along my life .

Maybe in a future time .

I'm not ready for anything yet ..

Only god know how much I love him .

I can't deny anything .

I'm stupid enough to let everything go ..

I need to get away from my life for awhile .

I can't think this way ..

Maybe, there's something lacking in myself .

I have to find it for my own sake ...

I don't need happiness from anyone .

I don't need love from anyone .

I just need myself to be back on track ......

I used to be happy .

Dependable on someone I really love .

I miss him being himself ...

I know people change ..

"Relaku Pujuk - Spider"

I can never forget this song ...

Forever .................

Cause he used to sing this song everywhere ....

P.S : I MISS HIM SO MUCH ......... HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY BABY .

Great Time Talking

2011-02-07T14:04:00.003+08:00

Had a great talk with one of my bestfriend .

Well , I didn't think that it'll will happen to my bestfriend as well .

What i'm going through , is what she's going through as well .

For what most is .

I know we are strong .

I know we can depend on ourself .

I know .

Cause you say yourself , it's their loss .

I wish you well baby .

I hope everything goes fine .

This is for you ..

Happy Anniversary .

2011-02-05T23:07:00.002+08:00

Well .

Happy Anniversary Nadiah ....

Zero days .

When freedom comesss .

2011-02-04T21:03:00.003+08:00

Yes .

When freedom comes ..

Everything comes in new to me .

I need to learn new steps , new ways , new solution .

I know . I'm gonna do this myself .

I know , I'm strong and independent .

You know .

I used to believe in love .

I used to believe in fairy tales .

I used to believe in happy ending .

I used to believe in marriage life .

I used to .

Now it all shattered .

But hey ,

Being single is not forever .

Nothing is forever in life .

It's just temporary .

I know .......

I'm being negative at this time .

But hey , I'm not perfect in every sense that comes into my life .

I do make mistakes in life , in school , in work , in making decision .

But as far as I know ....

I learnt a lot from mistakes ..

I can be positive tomorrow or maybe the next day .

I cannot be happy all the time .

I cried , EVERY night when I think about it .

I got feelings too .

Blogging it's the best choice I can be with .....

For now .

Don't promise is best

2011-02-03T22:26:00.005+08:00

Don't ever promise your partner that you couple could last long .

Cause it's not gonna be forever .

Yes I'm being pessimistic.

I used to believe in love .

Now , there's no more happy ending for me.

Hell no , I'm not okay

I'm sorry .

Career for now .

2011-01-28T20:33:00.001+08:00

No matter how hard I wanna hug you

No matter how hard I wanna kiss you

But deep inside me .

I know.

You're not mine anymore .

2011-01-25T22:55:00.001+08:00

Heartbreaking .

2011-01-19T17:02:00.002+08:00

Never did I thought it's enough for me

Never did I expect this would happen to me

Never is gonna be enough

I said it once through everything .

I'm honest .

I would never did anything like that

I would personally would never think about it

Years I've been through , and it still not fair

Having feelings that aren't suppose to have

Never did I thought this would happen to me

I had it once .

I had it twice .

It cross my mind a little .

But I've never imagine that I would have to do the same.

Feelings aren't suppose to be there .

Back blogging .

2010-12-18T12:09:00.001+08:00

Finally .

Everything is over .

Nursing is done .

2010-10-30T20:18:00.003+08:00

Watch " The last Exorcism" last Thursday .

Indeed , it was scary . I kept shouting and grabbing Hashik's arm .

Can't sleep after watching the movie , kept thinking about it .

Is it based on true story ?

Idk .

But looks like it's based on true story .

I did asked Hashik , he told me it was not . Hmm . o_O

But overall i'll give 4/5.

Paranormal Activity 2 watched just now together with Hashik .

So it means this week

I've watch 2 ghost movies .

Alot of suspend scene which make me scream .

I really concentrate to understand the film.

It's actually the earlier version of Paranormal Activity .

Which Micah was not dead yet .

Overall I rate 3/5

2010-10-21T11:04:00.003+08:00

I got a 10 sweet guy friend and 1 sweet girlfriend

AND

I like it !!

P.S : Thanks for being there for me .

2010-10-15T21:16:00.003+08:00

After 1 week attachment .

I got 8 weeks to go ..

Trying as much as I can .. Doing my best as I could .

Going thru the last hurdle and that's the end ..

Just for 1 year ..

What I really treasure the most ...

Sadly, I have to let it go .

My most precious JR0901E & my YEP Mates ..

I love them to the max .

How could I possible handle this ....

Well , life has to go on ....

Seconds , hours and days .....

All you can do it lead your life as normal people ..

Insya allah .

Things at attachment are going good so far .

Fardiana , Syaf and me are in the same shift .

Sadly , not Atiqah .

I bet the four of us have alot of things to share ...

Nursing life is AWESOME .

Working life ....... -.- ?

Might be awesome too , if you have the good friends .

Hopefully , I can start work as soon as possible ..

2010-10-10T23:08:00.003+08:00

How I wish , I can be in Vietnam .

How I wish , I can turn back time .

I don't mind staying at Vietnam for 11 weeks straight .

As long as I'm happy and I can rest my mind there .

I really don't mind ...

After 3 days in Singapore ...

I have to face all shits right through my face .

Maybe it's true .. You can't be happy all at once .

Cause one day you'll surely cry ..

Ups and down .. That's basic ...

Still , I'm happy with my YEP YEP KIA mates ...

Yeah , it's true what Hashik told me .

Back to reality .

No more fantasy mode ...

But , I rather have my fantasy mode switch on all the way .

Being happy is all i want ...

Not just me , even everyone in the world wants to be happy .

Meet Hashik just now .

Talk to him .

Miss him alot .

After 2 weeks of Vietnam mode ..... I still miss Hashik most .

How I wish he can be there with me ...

Tell him about what happen in Vietnam ..

From A-Z ....

He really can see how much I miss Vietnam ...

:'(

Vietnam .. I miss you .

2010-10-08T22:33:00.004+08:00

After months of YEP Team Building .

I've yet to make a really really good friends .

To strangers became good friends ...

Even though it's only for 14days ..

That 14days means alot for me .

Vietnam is the place that we've really close and know each other so well ...

For the 1st time when I wanna depart to Singapore .

All I can think is .. 14days is so long siaaa !

How am I gonna cope with everything by myself .

What should I do ?

A lot of question marks inside my head ..

Inside flight , that's where my journey begins ...

It's an life experience .

Alot of things had happened at Vietnam

Leave the bad things at Vietnam ...

Bring the good memories to Singapore .

Whatever happens at Vietnam stays at Vietnam ..

It's kinda sad to leave the love ones behind ..

But to think back , it's a life journey .

Opportunity comes only once .

I myself is happy to get selected out of a those 70 students .

Once I arrive in Singapore .

I felt something different ..

It's like i'm missing something ...

Maybe it's the fun ... Maybe my YEP Mates .

I don't know ..

The only things is that I love my YEP Mates and I really miss them alot !

Upload pictures soon ...

2010-09-24T10:34:00.002+08:00

Hello there bloggers .

Today is 24th of September 2010 .

I'm going off to Vietnam for 2 weeks .

Doakan Nadiah selamat pergi dan selamat balik

okay kawan-kawan ?

Amin ...

2010-09-10T15:26:00.002+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri Maaf Zahir dan Batin .

Terkasar bahasa tolong maaf kan .

Tersilap kata , tolong ampunkan .

Halal kan makan minum ku sekiranya aku terminum atau pon termakan makanan krg .

Amin ~

2010-09-04T23:37:00.005+08:00

YEP Trip is coming .

Which is 24 Sept 2010 . I'm not sure weather I still have the time to Jalan Raya with my beloved friends .

Hopefully can . I miss those day .

I've make new friends like alot of new friends .

I'm just exposing my options .

Going to Vietnam for 2 weeks is gonna be turf .

Leaving my family is the worst thing I can imagine .

Going there with friends and teacher only .

There's some many team building that I have to attend .

As you can see , the pictures here .

I prefer going sentosa .

It's fun , funny and amazing .

Making new friends , being close with them .

Is amazing .

Uhh . Orchid Farm .

Mind my hair , cause I'm very lazy to dress up at a Super HOT fasting day at Orchid Farm.

Orchid farm which is so boring and draggy .

Plus it's is super HOT that we must plant Orchid there .

Flowers there is super nice .

They really bloom really well .

See the pictures ? I like the white one .

Nice nice nice .

2010-08-22T13:18:00.004+08:00

Had fun with Zyra and Ayiish yesterday .

Photos are all with Ayiish .

Met them at 8pm , at KUCC .

They're eating at pizza hut .

FOC somemore .. :(

Too bad I was late .

After which , we were planning to have an overseas trip .

Maybe at redang.

Which I really wanna go so much .

Insya allah . If we have our free time to go .

Since, we are so busy with school and work .

Meet Syawal after that .

Had my ayam percik and my birdnest drink .

Best la ..

Now, while I am fasting .

I have to do spring cleaning .

It's really a challenge for me .

Cause it's so dusty .

This is my room .

And it's so messy !

Am taking a break from spring cleaning .

Arrr ... So tired ..

Arrcccc..hoooo !

2010-08-16T20:26:00.002+08:00

I know it's abit late to wish the Muslim .

But , what the hell . ..

Selamat Berpuasa kaum-kaum Islam .

2010-08-09T21:32:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 45TH BIRTHDAY SINGAPOREAN !

2010-08-09T21:11:00.003+08:00

When YOG yesterday ..

It's quite worth it after all .

Saw Goh Chok Tong ...

In live

I was super excited to see him for my first time ..

Eventho , I know it's so kental .

But , I can't help it la ..

Keep on shouting , until people beside me was like ....

" errr , it's only Goh Chok Tong " .

Heck care la ..

I'm Singaporean what ...

Whatever I see , I'll get excited ...

Photos will be posted at FB .........

2010-08-08T12:09:00.003+08:00

Imagine , On lovely sunday ...

I have to go to school .

For this YOG thingy ..

What the hell ..

It's once in a life time thing .

Passing of torch .

Cause , it's from Singapore Airport ..... :)

Maybe , it's gonna be fun .

6 more days to go .

2010-08-01T12:19:00.003+08:00

Quality of NX10 .

2010-07-25T12:53:00.004+08:00

Okay .

I bought Samsung NX10 .

Thought of buying Canon 550 .

Like i told you before .

Change of mind la .

Anyway, it's the newest camera I've known

Mirror-less camera .

All of them are good .

Just couldn't make up my mind .

Bought it yesterday at Expo .

There's IT Sale there ..

So , it's much cheaper I guess .

Haven't try it yet

Soon I guess .

2010-07-18T21:19:00.006+08:00

Hashik bought this watch ..

TAGHeuer .

Follow him to the shop .

Choose him the colour ..

It's quite nice when he wore it .

Nice colour too .. Suits him tho .

DSLR 550D .

Here I come bebeh !

Gonna buy this camera soon .

It's all worth buying this .......

So , whenever we go overseas we got a nice picture to snap .

I can't wait bebeh !

XOXO

Nadiah

2010-07-18T07:19:00.003+08:00

Yes .

Can't sleep .

Thinking about the incident happen yesterday .

I'm abit calmer now .

Please excuse the vulgarity on my previous post .

I'm ashamed to have a uncle like this .

I'm ashamed !

Thinking about the it .

We're as the younger generation , is on my dad's side .

And , i think ....

It's not wrong for us to interfere this ...

It's really not wrong ....

His child when all the way , to start it first .

On the other hand , we also blast it out .

We can be really quiet at most of the time .

But ,

Diam tidak bererti kita kalah ehk .

You're just lucky , that my dad is there bro !

If not , muka kau aku pecahkan ..

not with me alone ....

My dad have alots of back up ..

5 of his own .......

And ,

We can bring you down just like that ...

Think about it .

You !

Shouldn't have started it first .....

Takot .

Pastu balik ?!

Batang termasok .

XOXO

Nadiah !!

2010-07-17T22:22:00.003+08:00

I've been used ...

Again ..

It was my mistake .

I knew it was wrong , but I did it again .

Well , kenduri arwah ??

Family crisis .

It when so wrong .

So, chaotic at that point of time .

He , as an adult should think !!

Fuck them ! Fuck it ! FUCK YOU !

You shouldn't say that .

You shouldn't make my dad pissed off .

You shouldn't interfere .

Cause it's their problem .

And now ,

You're talking about respect ?!

What the hell are you talking about ?

You as an adult should know what you're talking about .

Adat !!

FUCK YOU LA !!!!

FUCK OFF .......

Sorry for this vulgarity .

But , if this were happening to you .

How would you react ?!

XOXO

Nadiah !

P.S : FUCK OFF ! Nampak kau pat luar ! Aku pukul kau ! Puki !

2010-07-13T23:24:00.002+08:00

I'm not active in watching movies nowadays .

Love has been busy the whole time .

The only day is weekend .

How I wanna weekend badly , so that I can spent time with him .

Love has been sweet the whole time .

Fetching me from school .

I really wanna watch Eclipse .

Hopefully this weekend after kenduri arwah at Uncle's house .

There's so many activities I wanna do .

Due to school and love's work ..

We can't ..

Our nights out are usually we treasure the most .

We really plan it out every weekend .

Sometimes it happened , sometimes it does not .

I'm happy with love now , before and in the future .

He can be quite boring at times .

But , he never fails ..

Never fails makes me laugh .

So swweet . :)

The people that I'm gonna miss most .

They are the one's been with me the whole time when I need a friend most .

Best-Friends !

They are the one's that reminds me about friends in Dunman Secondary .

I miss every single moment for it .

The guy there is Zulfikar .

Recently , I did share certain stuff with him .

I trust him lots .

The fact that he is into Chinese girls la .

So sad ..

He kinda sweet too .

Even though he is way 3 years younger than me .

But , too bad la kan .

He really rather go after Chinese girls la .

XOXO

Nadiah

2010-07-13T08:04:00.003+08:00

Blogging while waiting for Fatin Nabilah to arrive at Tampines .

School re-open .

Conflict here and there already started .

Well , we only have like 4 weeks left to school

then off to attachment .

And Bye bye ...

2 years of nursing life is gone .

Ain't it wasted .

Sometimes , I feel that 2 years while I was in school .

I should work and collect all the money I got for future use .

Not that I didnt have a saving account .

I do have .

But .......

Anyway ,

Things are done .

There's no way for me to turn back time .

Follow the flow .

Gonna buy a new laptop for me .

Maybe I'm gonna buy HP Mini .

Hopefully ..

Surprisingly, I havent touch my GST money yet .

How cool is that .

I've make a bet with this guy .

It's from Dunman Secondary .

He's my senior lah ..

He said to me .

If Holland win , i get to treat him for dinner .

Same if Spain won .

So ... SPAIN WON ..

Harris ... Pssst ! I smell Foooooooooooood !

Haha .

Congrats Spain !

2010-07-09T20:52:00.000+08:00

For the few months , I kept alot of secrets .
Keep it to myself .
Keep it to my love .
Keep it to my best-friend in ITE Nursing .
But, today ..
I let it out .
I let it out to my bestfriend .
I really tell the whole story and she really had the same problem with me .
And also to the same person .

I felt sorry for it .
But at the same time ..... We're stupid .
I'm mature enough ... to think ..
But I chose not too .
Isn't it stupid ...
Well , mistakes I did ..
Let bygones be bygones .
Learn from it .

Things in life is getting better ...
I'm leading a good life ..
Wohhoo . Hehe !
Being depressed it's okay now .
Normal person will always come across depression .
Well , apart from that .........
Being stress-free is GOOD .....
Germany lost !
With 1-0 to Spain.
WTH !
I watch soccer and i'm so disappointed .
Germany , what you doing man !

Next soccer gonna be Netherlands Vs Spain .
I must watch it .
Uruguay Vs Germany is tomorrow ...
We'll see :)

XOXO
Nadiah

2010-06-30T11:31:00.002+08:00

My blog gone dead .

I know .

Cut my hair last 2 weeks .

Short .

Just above my shoulder .

I hate it !

I hate short hair .

Gonna rebond my hair soon .

GST Money !!

It's a surprise yesterday .

When Raudah SMS me , asking to meet up .

Us . Like all of the angels .

Hopefully . We'll meet up soon .

I've been thinking of her for like weeks ago .

I don't know why .

Maybe I miss her alot .

I miss all my angels .

Well , what can I say ...

Everyone busy with something ....

How I wish I can turn back time .\

XOXO.

Nadiah

2010-06-23T13:04:00.002+08:00

When for a walk yesterday with him .

Nice breeze night walk , talk with him .

It feels so comfortable .

It's like I can be open with him in every conversation that we had .

Talking about the present and the past ,

We realize that the past brings you up that what you are now .

Sometimes the past is something you just can't let go of

Sometimes the past is something we'll do anything to forget

And sometimes we learn something new about the past that changes everything we know about the present .

Meaning full ain't it .

2010-06-22T14:13:00.002+08:00

Ask most people what they want out of life and the answer is simple is to be happy.

Maybe it's this expectation though of wanting to be happy that just keeps us from ever getting there.

Maybe the more we try to will ourselves to state's of bliss, the more confused we get to the point where we don't recognize ourselves.

Instead, we just keep smiling trying to be the happy people we wish we were.

Until it eventually hits us, it's been there all along.

Not in our dreams or our hopes but in the known, the comfortable, the familiar.

Not all of us is happy .

But the truth is, all of us wants to be happy .

Simple.

2010-06-21T21:42:00.002+08:00

3 years time baby .

Count down with me .

3 YEARS TIME .........

Oh oh .

Just now while I was resting on my bed .

There's a loud siren outside my house .

When my whole family heard it , Fairuz quickly open up the gate and when outside to see.

It's Civil Defense .

There's 1 bunch of Super Sexy . Hot . Finger Licking CDmens .

3 firemen truck .

2 police car . But I dunno where the hell the police is ...

They went up to my blok .

Cause there's fire at 8 storey .

Mom was panic .

Fairuz was super panic .

I was laughing

Sister was complaining about the smell .

Dad ...... Wasn't at home .

Holiday ending up like 2 weeks more .

I really have to enjoy every single one of it .

When out like nobody business .

Bored at home .

Waited of Hashik every single day to finish his work .

Then , off we go .

Having fun is always in my mind .

Having flu and sore throat is not a good thing .

I cant sleep for like 3 days now .

Hopefully it'll heal as days goes by .

Im so in love with durians . Maybe that's where I got my flu and sore throat .

KARATE KID !

2010-06-16T13:29:00.003+08:00

Awesome movie .

2010-06-01T23:19:00.005+08:00

How can I not be addicted to Grey's Anatomy .

They are HOT !

Really really HOT !

You blogger's , Should watch it !

The whole episode is Awesome .

Aren't they HOT .

This is Derek Sherpherd .

Neurology Surgeon ..

And thiss ...

Mark Sloan .

Plastic Surgeon ..

Aren't they HOT !

I've fallen in love with both of them .

Especially .. MARK SLOAN ...

He is HOT !

Doctor shouldn't be HOT like this right ?

They should look nerd right ?

And not HOT right ?

Basically about their life .

Their Sex life . That's where the interesting part goes .

It can go , on and on and on .

;) ..

2010-05-15T21:54:00.002+08:00

I know it's kind of late to tell .

Cause I bet everyone have watch the movie .

But , I would like to empathize here that

Ip Man II is AWESOME !

When to watch the movie yesterday .

Kind of late when we watch Ip Man , it's around midnight .

Hashik just got back from work .

But it was AWESOME !

After movie,

off to Thang Tea to eat ...

Saw Iskandar's sister there too .

She was shocked to see Hashik .....

Told him that he look a little different .

Kembang nk mampos tu Hashik !

Keep smiling all the way ...

So, Menyampah !

Then off to Pasir Ris Beach.

Talking together .. Spending sometime with each other

Since, we were so busy with work and school .

I so miss the days .

Both of us are

Planning on going to Sentosa this June Holidays ..

Hopefully it happen ..

Insya allah ..

Reach home late ....

Tired but I had fun with him .

I love you so much baby .

2010-05-09T16:53:00.002+08:00

Still struggling the changes in my life .

Trying to adapt my changes .

My stress .

My life .

No problems is solve without a solution .

Well , my problems ?

Has no solution .

AT ALL .....

2010-05-02T19:10:00.004+08:00

I thought being 21 is like leading a normal life .

But hey , it's a BIG NO for all eh ?

Being 21 ,

You have to start thinking what are you gonna do next in your life .

Issues about money .

Issues about family .

Issues about relationships .

and friends too .

All of us were busy .

With school , work , activities outside , home , family .............

Forget about our old life , old memories

Keep chasing new updates outside , trying not to be the 'odd' one

That's everyone would do .

And when , I got a meet up with old friends

Catching things up , talking about old memories .

I starts to laugh , cry , miss all the fun .

That's when I realize , that my life started with them .

and doesn't want to end it like that .

My angels ....

We do have a lot lot lot of catching up to do .

I've been missing you angels lately .

I know ...

I'm the one that have been busy with stuff and no time for you girls .

and I'm Sorry ....

Hoping that I could meet you girls again .

Catch things up over and over again .

YES ! I miss you girls BADLY ..... :'(

I'll try to spent some time with my angels ....

Weekend perhaps .....

Do call me alright ...

:) :) :)

I'll try to make myself free

2010-05-02T10:02:00.003+08:00

Weekend ending soon when the clock strike 12

Monday blues coming ..

Working in morning shift ..

Shagged . :(

I still owe the library CD's .

Haven't given it back yet .

Oops !

MY FAULT ! MY FAULT !

My body starts to ache so much .

There's a uneven tone color skin .

And it's UGLY BULGY !

Keeps using lotion to let my skin tone back to normal.

BUT !

I think I'll have to wait like 3 more days to see the difference ..

SUNBURN ! SUNBURN ! GO AWAY . Come again another day .

2010-04-30T23:07:00.001+08:00

Hello WEEKEND !

Should I feel jealous ?

2010-04-28T16:02:00.002+08:00

Doesn't make any sense at all .
Why should I be jealous ?
Any advice ?
I've shouldn't started it at first .

Nad ! You're so stupid .
You got yours .
Stop being a BITCH can !
Something happen .
And I can't deny it .
My feelings for you is getting ..............................
I know I should STOP !
You too baby ....

Ain't that perfect .
Should I feel jealous ?
:'(

Anyway .....
Happy Birthday Ayiish !
The surprise was so lovely .
Even I , myself is Speechless ...
Pictures at Facebook .
Lazy to upload here ...

Should I feel guilty ?

2010-04-21T23:27:00.004+08:00

Should I ?

Life hasn't been fair to me .

I may be look super happy on the outside ..

But I'm super sad .....

Super Duper trouper sad ..

I know .

What's wrong and what's right in me ....

But, THIS DECISION I'VE MADE IS GONNA CHANGE MY F%^^&*( LIFE !

And I can't bear to leave Hashik ...

This secret I have to keep it to myself .

I know. No one knows .

I don't really feel the regretfulness in me.

I just felt nothing.

Apathy .

I don't know what will happen next .

How will I react ?

How will I answer ?

What will I do ?

I'm super not ready .

I just wanted to cry out loud .

But there's no tears at all .

I wanted to shout out loud .

But there's no voice coming out .

I wanted to share it with someone .

But there's nothing left to say .

I'm sorry .

That's all I can say .

CP had started

2010-04-18T11:36:00.002+08:00

Yes .

CP had started .

Lots of updates have been coming into my mind .

I was shocked enough to know about it .

Well , what past between him is my past .

He is happy now . :)

Weekends life.

I've been busy going outing with my love ones .

Awesome !

It's been raining for the past few days , or might I say few weeks ?

Every night whenever I wanted to go home.

I'll always gets wet with Hashik .

Oh and and !

Salam Takziah buat Awrah Achik Spin .

Good Luck at CP

2010-04-11T12:45:00.003+08:00

12th April 2010

Attachment started ...

Good luck people . I'm gonna miss everyone in JR0901E

Nice knowing that I have a great class .

I'm proud to have friends like you guys !

Shobana : I'll see you when I see you ! *Grab tetek*

Naddo : I miss your singing .

Sulastri : I miss sitting beside you and talk nonsense.

Fatin Nabilah : We'll have time together again aite !

Aan : Well same hospital . But hell , I'm gonna miss you

Sab : Alamak ! Bukak je melayu . Miss you lots

Maz : Wet tissue okay bro !

China girls : Well , basically you guys testing my patience . But miss you guys ! *Muke busuk , spent time with me well aite !

Zulfikar : My husband .. Well, since we're busy .. I'm gonna miss you too darling .

Yakub : Adik ku ... Eventho, we got no parents ... I still love you adik .

To BL mate : Outing coming bebeh !

Means girls , Monday bebeh !! Appreciate our time well aite ! Looking forward to meet you .

Fatdiana , Awww ! Atiqah and Syaf : TEKKKKK !!!! Monday bebeh !

2010-04-09T21:45:00.002+08:00

I bet you guys have seen this pictures at Facebook right .

Yeap . I'm proud to say that I am a BL !

Did orientation just now .

Draggy .

Newbies are all like plain boring.

This pictures are all from the previous meeting that we did with teacher .

Uploading pictures .

Coming up soon aite.

Check it out at Facebook.

Uhahaha

2010-04-04T12:46:00.004+08:00

My story goes like this :

Night outing with sisters and cousin .

Super fun ..

Have a late night dinner at Bedok Simpang.

To be exact it's beside bedok simpang la actually .

Picture show eveything .

Booo !

2010-04-01T14:33:00.002+08:00

It's been raining for the past few days .

Rotting at home watching movies

Like : Euro Trip, Tooth Fairy, Precious, Law Abiding Citizen, HangOver, Couple Retreat and many many more.

The only time I can go out is after Hashik's working hours.

Which is at 7.30pm...

Spenting time with Hashik .

Cool + Fun = Cool Shit !

LOL ! Nonsense.

Exam Result : PASSED with Flying Colours.

Congrats to my friends.

Those who pass , work harder !

Those who did not do well ..

Try Harder ..

2010-03-24T11:43:00.004+08:00

Two weeks of holidays had past .
Clearly , I haven't wasted every opportunity yet .
Lots of plans has been made by friends.
Boyfriend .
Although I know he is busy with work .
Awesome !

Exam results will release on 31st of March 2010.
Excited ? Yeap !
Scared ? Definitely Yes !
Worried ? Also yes.
I had these mixed feeling la.

Being with Hashik during his NS days
and now is way way different.
I'm happier now.
He started working and start to earn more than wasting money.
His first few months have make him realise tho .
I've been telling him to save and stuff
He won't listen to me.
Till the days when he really need money .
That's when he realise it.

Now ,
He can save plus he can buy things that he wanted to .
Lots of plans been coming thru our minds.

We've been planning of having our next step of relationship.
But I don't think so la.
Still schooling .
Hashik still stabilizing his work , family and me.
Plus me having in his family ?
I'm creating more stress .
I do love his family.
Especially his nephews and niece .
I think I'm not ready for it yet.
Slowly but surely.
Insya Allah.

I didn't tell this to my family.
Cause I know, my mum definitely will tell me to do it.
So, I keep it as a secret.
Shhh .

xoxo
-Nadiah-

P.S : Aku tak tahu masak laa .

Fatin's Crib

2010-03-21T21:14:00.004+08:00

Being the second one ?

NOT cool .

You just making use of me .

and I know that .

I was not born yesterday .

I got brain to think.

I got eyes to see.

I got ears to listen.

It's my fault tho.

I shouldn't have started it first.

I've shouldn't know you AT FIRST

BIG mistake !

NOT COOL.

Stay up at Fatin's Crib.

That is C-O-O-L !

To those that bastard : THANKS A LOT ! WE DO HAVE FUN ..... WTF la korang okay !

Pictures at Reza's Facebook .

Shall not elaborate it more.

A new friend found at Facebook.

That's Jassie if you blogger are wondering.

Came close to him since Feb2010.

Meet him at Facebook.

Yup still schooling in Nursing .

Year 1 :)

P.S : We're just friends .

-Nadiah-

xoxo

SURPRISEEEE

2010-03-15T02:02:00.006+08:00

Organized an advance surprise party to Hashik

on 12 March 2010.

He wasn't aware any of it.

At times I wanted to blurred it out to Hashik.

But I really have control myself from doing it and it's a suscess one !

I hope he likes it !

I had to ask permission from Hashik parents first tho.

I msged her sister, tell her that I wanted to make and advance surprise to Hashik.

Bla bla bla ..

Let the pictures to do talking.

Facebook there are plenty .

2010-03-11T13:07:00.007+08:00

School holiday already started.

Plans with my JR0901E have alot.

Marina Barrage.

Camps

:) :)

Cool ! Cool ! Cool !
Campus 2.1 is awesome !!!
Looking forward in everything laa..

Only the part when I heard about my teacher in CP !

I was like ... WHATTTTTTT !!!

After all phase test I'm been wanting to avoid him !

Ended up his my CP Lecturer !

Omg ! I have to drag my feet la !

Hashik ORD...

ARGHHHHHHHH!!
Double Happy ..

Finally it's DONE !

D-O-N-E !

Allhamdulilah ..
Thanks ALLAH ..

After all the 2 years of waiting.

The fight . The urge of breaking up... 2years of hell

It's all worth while ..

Having some discussion with Hashik .

After NS life . ;)

I miss him so much .

Now , I can spent time with him all day long.

Allhamdulilah.....

Amin !

2010-03-07T18:47:00.006+08:00

Right now.

My house is in a mess.
Tell me now
How am I gonna study ?

Asssss-whole.

Yeah.
Renovation tomorrow and my dad, brothers even my Pak Ngah
are here to help clearing things up.
We're not renovating the whole house yet.
It's just a makeover on my brother's room.

Exams are on 8th and 9th March 2010.
Which is on Monday and Tuesday...
PCA and Biology.
Both Biology class test I got distinction
Which makes me happy.
As for PCA ?

I think I'll get C for it .
I'll study for PCA harder next time.

2.1 in campus coming to an end.
Gonna miss my class .
Gonna miss The M girls , My B girls..
Gonna miss my husband aka Zulfikar .
Gonna miss his smell of perfume , his smile , his maddness , his touchness,
gonna miss everything.

Gonna miss everything in school.
CP coming up soon .
Mean girls activated .
Fat pon da activate.
Soon , the ward is our's again eh MEAN GIRLS
:) :)

Hopefully Exams paper is easy
as I thought it'll be .
Insya allah
Amin.

Hello !

2010-02-24T23:36:00.006+08:00

I know i've not been updating.
You blogger will visit my blog and say
" Alamak .. Budak ni tak update pulak boring uh bace blog dier "
I knew it .
Cause I've done it alot of times.
So, school was awesome.
Monday is always a MONDAY BLUES
Lots of theory need to be done.
HIV presentation DONE !
Phase Test : Hmmm ...........
Class Test : DONE !
Next is : EXAM
3 week of holiday.
Then off to Clinical Posting..
Gonna miss JR0901E
Time is pecious .

So, tuesday was a nightmare !
I cried alot !
I just couldnt help it !
Geron sucks !
Teacher made us cry .
She tell us to remind our sad moments ..
How can it be ?!
Alot of flashbacks when into my mind..
About my grandmother .
About friends .
About everything .

People may looked at me as tho as I'm alright
Well , that's my outer potion part.
How are my inner potion ?
I'm not that strong .
It just that I hate telling my sad stories to people .
I feel that it just not right for me..

My dear Angels should know it.
I shall not eleborate it more .
29 June 2006 : How can I not forget this date ....
The day Hashik perform at MLT.
That day was the day I really need to rush home ...

Well, after knowing Hashik ORD is getting closer and closer...
I am sooooo excited !
Can't wait .
How issit gonna be ?
What is he gonna do ?
Maybe , work ? Maybe lepak-ing ? Maybe school-ing ( Eventho I did not agree to it)
If he wants to go to school .
Then when am I gonna get married ?

I wish by the age of 27 ?
Issit too old ?
Alah , kalau ada jodoh .. Apa salahnyeeeeeeeeeeeeeee?
Hehehe :)
Gatal la Nadiah !

Oh, among my angels ..
I might think ..
It's either AINI ONA or ASLINA will get married first.
Amcm krg ? Ready SET GO uh !!!! Aku nk ANAK angkat jugak !
Suhailah no need to say !
Sometime, I envy her.
Such a young age .. 20 !?
Engaged ! Woah ! Nice right !?
Dah jodoh dier .
I'm happy for her bebeh !

:)
Promise I'll update soon
aite !
LOVE YOU !
JR0901E ....
Hopefully we'll meet again :)

Mean Girls !!
CP's COMING !!!!!!!

Having date with baby is fun ..

2010-02-16T14:53:00.006+08:00

Went out with baby yesterday .
It's a last minute date .

We thought of resting at home.
Cause each of us are tired .
Furthermore, PCA test is on Wednesday .
But we just couldn't sit at home .
Plus it's so bored at home la.

So, baby called me and we were talking for like 15 minutes ,
when we randomly planned for an outing .
Since both of us are bored at home, and we kept missing each other so much.
So we decided to meet up .

Meet baby at 3pm under my void deck . Obviously, I was late for like 30 minutes.
Doesn't want to spoil this outing , I apologized to him .
I know it's my fault.
Blueeekkkkkkkkkkk......

Go Century Square and surprisingly for the first time Century Square
I see there's not much people in the AFTERNOON. :)
Usually you'll see people go shopping, walking and eating .
Bla blah blaaaa...

So , since the atmosphere there is quiet.
We decided to go to e-hub.
Wondering , It's CNY and I saw most Chinese people were not celebrating.
Okay , maybe some of them are Christian..
So what la !

Spent time with baby is FUN !
Lazy to elaborate more .
Yeap .. We didn't celebrate Valentine's Day.
For us , There's no need valentine's day , cause loving each other is what
we do everyday . :)
Heartzz babe !

2010-02-08T20:44:00.004+08:00

School = Stress !
Why ?!
Next test coming right up . Which is PCA and Bio-Science Class Test 2.
Thank god phase test is over ..
Over as in FINISH !
Then Gerontological Test and Bio-Science Class Test 1 is also over .
So, now I'll just focus on Patient Care Assistance (PCA) theory paper and Bio-Science 2.
There's alot of memorizing to do .
Lots of understanding .
Lots of asking .

Once u flop , it's gonna be hard to catch up .
So, I can't afford to miss a lesson .
NOT EVEN ONE !
Mind you !
Yeah .. That's why I said ..
SCHOOL = STRESS !

Just now was Gerontological Test .
If you blogger were wondering what's Gerontological ..
It's all about elderly .
DAMN right ! How boring can it be .
Cause , nowadays there are more elderly then youngest !
It's was okay . Not as easy as I thought it might be .
but , I think I can do it ...
Yup . staying up late just to study about old people .
Well in nursing .It's a MUST tho !

Friends in school were also supportive .
When comes to Study .. Attention is all needed.
But when comes to FUN !
You know I know laa ...
Full of nonsense ! Especially when comes to ''LIFESKILLS''
Eventho I got exempted I've yet have to come .
Cause it's the middle of my time-table and I couldnt miss all the FUN there !
So people .
Stay tune for Mazlina's wedding photo !
I'll update once i get those pictures !
I'm sooooo super EXCITED !

2010-02-06T20:11:00.005+08:00

Sorry la blur !

I miss you Iqek !

2010-01-30T19:34:00.005+08:00

January leaving us soon !

I can't continue like this .
This is wrong Nadiah .
Why must this feeling come !
I just hate it !
Learn your mistake Nad ..

School : Bio-Science 1 Test Done
Insulin Phase Test Done !
Next :I/V Phase Test Coming 6FEB2010
Wish me luck !
Yes ! I'M NOT READY

I MISS YOU !

2010-01-21T22:26:00.003+08:00

OMG ! OMG ! OMG !
Saw my long lost friend in school just now.
Was so freaking shock siaaa ...
Guess who ?!
FADHIL SioL !!
FADHIL BIBIR !
Yes ! Fadhil Bangla ....
Like I said .. I was shocked .
Was him at Cafe 1, was queuing to buy drinks.

School :
Great lately. Been laughing every now and then .
Randomly, talk about Heineken advertisement.
Imitating the guys at the ad ..
Hilarious !
If you would noticed , Facebook is all there ...
it's so chaotic.
Apparently , every girls in my class was able to join in the fun.
That's excited me the most..
Okay . Not every single one of there . Let's exclude the Cina's Girls ..
The rest is all there .
Name ourselves : MEMBERS OF PARLIMENT
Don't ask me why .. It's just so random ..

The bonding in class should I say getting closer and closer .
Agree ?
Gone thru thick and thin together .
Fighting .
Laughter .

Oh ASS , I miss secondary school life already .
The fun I MISS SO MUCH in secondary school .
Looking forward to school tomorrow.
Cause I know, there's more laughing to do .

PUT ASIDE STUDY PLEASE..
BIO-SCIENCE TEST IS ON MONDAY !

2010-01-18T19:43:00.003+08:00

Monday blues.
What do you expect !
Boring day for me in school .
Didn't talk much .
Wasn't in a good mood either.
Saw that BIMBO in school.
Kept following where I go .
Kept following where Fatin was going.
Okay Whatever !

In case you people are wondering.
I did not shout at her.
Even to look at her, I eventually gonna puked !
Even if I dare also, I didn't want to..
Cause , it's first day of school
In the morning, bright new day .
Why not start afresh huh ?!

Either way ,
I didn't want her to lose face.
What can I say ,
She's pretty righttt.... Later if lose face how ?!
Pity her la !

Yes. I do.
I do kept thinking bout' it.
Tell me bout' it .
Who can accept names that you're not at all ?
Tell me who ?
Hypocrite.
Define what hypocrite really means.
Does she knows ?
Furthermore, ANAK ORG KAYA KATAKAN !
What more could I say ..!

Forget bout it.
In school , while waiting for lesson .
Saw Iskandar and Yusri at Level 5 B block.
Talk awhile with Iskandar,
As you know , Yusri dah sombong ngn aku .
:P Hehe.

Yeap, meet him after school cause he got to know
Hashik picking me up in school.
Met Hashik at 6pm with Iskandar and Asri.
Then, off to Upper Changi Road to take Asri's bike at workshop.

Due to using of my Nursing Uniform.
I have to go back early.
Felt uncomfortable tho...
Reach home at 7pm.
Miracle right...
Spent only for like 1hr ...
To ITE Simei, then off to Upper Changi Road then back again to Tampines..
Takes me for like 1hr je.

Now, OFF TO MEET HASHIK
I miss him alot !
:)

2010-01-17T21:18:00.001+08:00

Long way to go ..

And I'm still not ready for anything ..

I hope you understand.

2010-01-16T14:10:00.008+08:00

So, 2nd week of school
Not been great ..
Alot of revision I had to do .
Alot of class tests I had to prepare .
Be-ing a year 2 student is NOT NOT ! great .
Prefer being a year 1 student instead.

Things in class are coming great.
As far as I know , Things between this BIMBO is intense !
Fuck la anyhow , say Im being hypocrite !
Nabei ! "BUTO SAMA ANDA"
The urge of me coming to her and shout in front of her face is already there .
Just wait for the good timing tho.
So, Nursing Year2 Student.. Wait for a show to get started aite ..
Location : Level 5 Locker ..

So adik-adik type ..
She's still under age girl .
What can I say !?
Pompan tkde otak .
Fighting/Conflict with her it's like wasting of my bloody precious time .
Whenever I think about her .
My heartbeat is beating faster and faster.
It's like sooo geram .. and it's so iritating .

Eh Pompan ,
Making assumption as if that you know more about me .
Fabricate stories that ain't nothing about me.
So stop assuming and think before saying !
Don't act as if nothing happen .
Cause definitely there's something is happening.
Stop acting like you know me better than my MUM !
Cause you know nothing shit about me .

STOP ! STOP ! STOP !
Stop acting as if you are mature then me .
Stop !
Stop being a show off ..
I know that you are fucking rich..
But HELL ! Kau cume menompang je ..
Yg kaya tu BAPAK KAU !

Shit ! Vent-ing anger here is the only way .
Stop be-ing pamper !
Cause in school .. I treat all my friends the same
So, STOPP FUCKER ! STOP !!

I've never meet someone like you siak ..
Even my angels are not like you ..
AT ALL !
Even if we have conflicts , they didnt go around the whole world to tell about it .
Lesson learn here..
Fuck la..
If you are iritated by me . Then WALK OFF..
Cause , in school I behave like that ..
Even everyone knows.
Even my angels knows ..
Even my mean girls knows...
Even Hashik knows .
Even my family knows.
Even god knows.

I didnt lie to myself ..
Either do I lie to you .
So stop acting like you're a perfect girl.
Stop being bossy .
Cause we're not your FUCKING MAID ..
ASSHOLE...

I've got only ONE. O-N-E word for you "BITCH" !

2010-01-08T21:21:00.002+08:00

Hello fellow blogger !
Weekends coming bebeh !
Wohhooo !!
Rest day for me ...
Since in school I've been stressing alot with my Bio-lesson + Patient Care Assistant + Head Section + Phase Test + Geron Project ..
OMG !
Phase Test !
Coming on Thursday .
Ala , easy la .. Insulin only ...

So, Friday ...
Miss class today .. Cause attending BL for telematch ..
BL yes .. I was selected to be a BL (Bridge Leader)
Mdm Noorliza selected me tho ..
Wasn't aware that ..
Ok, forget bout it'

So, telematch ...
was boring for the 1st hour, cause the year one student was like ...
BODOH ! FCUK la them ! Irritating ...
Telematch .. Ring a bell ?!
What would you do when you volunteer yourself in a telematch ?
Would you'll be sitting there and step lawa or cheering ?
Choose ONE !
For me .. Of course I choose cheering..
Well ,basically shouting and kutuk-ing is my favorite hobby .

So, I felt like giving up till
I saw one big bunch of AHS boys behind trying to cheer ..
So, I when there and help ..
Indeed , It's a successful one !
It's so kecohrable ...
Then , one by one girls pulak join in the fun ..
Then , it's done !
It's soooooooo NICEEE !
I LOVE IT !!

Then now ...
Voice no have !
Throat pain !
:(
Overall .... F - U - N !

OMG ! they video us !
Shitt !!!!
Confirm muka aku buruk sak !

XOXO
Nadiah !

2010-01-05T20:14:00.002+08:00

Guess what ?!
It's already the 2nd day of school
and I'm freaking tired .
Classmates : So far so good .
Tomorrow's Wednesday and 2 more days to go !
Weeeee ...

Yesterday ,
Was so freaking boring .
1st lesson was BIOLOGY SCIENCE.
Indeed , I concentrate that damn topic. Just to make me understand .
Surprisingly, I understand the whole lots of it .
Chey , Nadiah blaja la seh
Well , I had to study ... I wanna pass with 'flying colours' weeee!

Next week it's already our phase test .
Had to be serious n shit ..
The head section had been teaching us like ................................
Hmmmm ......
And she tekan us like mad ...
But , after all I did understand her lessson ...

Saw Iskandar, Asri and Syafiq's brother just now .
They performing at Ampitheater ..
I miss it ! :(
Was having PM2 and they already perform .. :(
So sad , didnt get to watch it ..
Oh ya ! Saw that Shawal oso ...
Keeps disturbing me .. As per normal ! So iritating ..
Da botak la ! So buruk !
Like kepala buddha !

And it's
5th Jan 2010 !
Happy anniversary to Nadiah and Hashik ..
Share some loveee .. bebeh !
R/s with him has been great ..
COMMUNICATE bebeh ... It's all we need ...
Been 8 years knowing him , I guess I should know him by now..
But NO !
Cause, it's still a long journey till I get satisfied !
And go on to the next level of our relationship..
:)
Wish me luck !

LOVE NADIAH !
XOXO

2009-12-31T21:36:00.002+08:00

GOODBYE 2009

and Let us just welcome 2010 !

2009-12-30T22:23:00.004+08:00

Holiday gonna end soon . .
School drawing nearer and nearer . .
Mood right now : BORED !
Loads of stories to tell ..
It's gonna be long entry ..
Tkmo Boring eh !

Played PS2 Games with Fairuz just now.
I'm so addicted to this game , called MONSTER vs ALIEN
Whenever I had a chat with lala , there's always an interruption
Sorry teks !
That game is so calling me to play ..
I can't stop doing this mission ..
I have to finish it !
LOL !
By the way , tetek ! Thanks for your advice.
It did work you know..
:)
I love you Mean Girls !
FATdiana You too La !

Countdown ?
2010 ?
It is really gonna be 2010 ..
Time goes so fast till I didn't even realised that I've wasted a lot .
Wasted doing mistakes that weren't supposed to be .

Hashik ORD is drawing nearer too !
How excited can I be ?
TOO EXCITED !
2 more months I have to endure .
Then , wallah !
I can spent time with him the way I wanted to ..
2 YEARS of Suffering/ness.
How can I not suffer ?
I do miss him alot.

In 2010 ,
I'm gonna be 21 years old.
What shall I plan ahead ?
Should I just follow the flow ?
Loads of my friends are already working .
Finding their ways of surviving in life.
Growing up independently ..
Jealous ?!
Nope ! Not at all .. Happy for them , cause they deserve it .
They deserve what they wanted in life, and I'm happy for them.
As for me,
Well , not sure yet .
Hashik ? Has decided what to do after NS .
And i'll always be a supportive GF + Friend = WIFE ?!
LOL ! (Macam paham WIFE)
Yeah . I'll always be your side dear .
:)

It's a long journey
I guess ..
Many of my friends relationship goes BYE BYE .
Well ,take it as takda jodoh .
In fact , 5 of my friends who had a serious relationship went all the way down .
Well , I don't know.
I'm too scared ..
Too scared to face the reality .
Too scared , what if one day Hashik is not there for me anymore.

Doesn't mean that I've known Hashik for years ,
we'll be together forever .
I didnt judge it that way .
It's all in god hands.
I do love Hashik , I really do .
It's just that , kalau kita da tkde jodoh .
Nak buat macam mane kan .

Whatever it is ..
Wish me luck to stay strong with Hashik .
Insya allah sampai ke jengjeng pelamin .
*issit jengjeng or jingjang ?

Insya allah ..
XOXO
Love Nadiah

2009-12-28T22:01:00.002+08:00

Found this status at my MSN : Tell me I'm a wreck ..
P.S : She in my MSN list as a Friend.

Answer is : YES ! You are a wrecker !
OMG ! How come u didn't even realised it ?!
LOL ! It's a joke right !

Sezairi was crowned as Singapore Idol.
Proud of it . 3 Guys + Malay = Singapore Idol
Well , It's all about talent.
Congrats to Sezairi !
Congrats to Slyvia ! At least she was the 1st women which step into finals .
Proud ? Hell Yeah !

Had a girls night out on last Sunday !
Sadly , pictures was accidentally been deleted !
Damn it seh !
:(
Basically , meet my friends at 1130pm.
then, off to Macdonalds at Interchange.
Since they wanted to drink this Mc Cafe whatever latte la.
So, been talking and laughing and taking photos !
Lots of catching up to do with them.
One loads of F-U-N !

We should do it again eh krg !
LOL !
Missing my BestFriends for like months now.
I know they're all busy with life.
Whatever it is , I'll always love them .
Aslina , Faezah , Aini M , Aini O , Afidah and most of all Raudah !
Mane kau menghilang seh !
I miss her so much !
Please spare some time for me.
So that I could talk and hug my BESTFRIENDS .
I MISS YOU ANGELS !!

Zoo was FUN !

2009-12-06T19:18:00.004+08:00

Relationship with Hashik is shaky.
I don't know why.
But it's seems like we're not in talking terms.
To be exact , we've been not talking with him for almost a week.
It is serious ?
Well, to me it's serious.
As usual , whenever we fight or had some argument we did talk it over ..
Settle things down.
Do what we should as a BF/GF.
But as for this , I think ......
Yeah . .
I do know , he is busy with his NS.
But SHIT ! I do too !
I'm tired too..
Well, I don't know. I need someone . But who ?
=( . .

Yesterday was 5th Dec 2009.
When to Singapore Zoo with Family.
Daddy didn't want to go , as he was lazy . .
Since , we had free tixs for all . .
Why wasted it ?
We continue as what we planned . .
Hell yeah ! It was fun !
The white tiger is so beautiful . .
I really admire the tiger so much !
There's some funny moments too. .
Well, I'm too lazy to elaborate more..
More pixs will be posted at Facebook. =)

Happy reading !

Nic-est Day with BabyBooBoo

2009-11-23T19:45:00.006+08:00

Story Telling Time.

Watched 2012 the minutes it came into cinema.
Online booking at E-hub and afraid that it's will be FULL-HOUSE..
Indeed it is...
FULL-HOUSE!
It's an 2 hrs show. Good to watch.
Rated 4/5.
It's was last minutes plan in weekends..

Then off to secret recipe at Tampines 1.

Food there was okay.

Not that good as I expected.

Ordered Sillion Steak and BabyBooBoo Ordered some western food which I forgotten .

Reached home around 12am.
Having such a wonderful time with BabyBooBoo.
Ever since, he's always busy with work
and me, as usually.
School . .
Now, never been better...
His always there for me.
Thanks Baby..

2009-11-04T20:10:00.004+08:00

I think..
I'm suffering from constipation.

Yeah..
Can someone give me lactose or fleet enema please ?
To clear all my bowels . .
I'm begging you !!!
Cause I'm getting sick and tired of going for attachment in the morning
and felt bloated all the time
Or maybe I didn't drink lots of water..

Yeah..
Maybe I need to drink lots lots lots LOTS of water !

Something GREAT happen in the ward this afternoon.
It was like my first time observed, experience and learning something new.
Such an experiencing moment.
It's good to see something new in the ward.

Okay.
We declared ourselves as mean girls
Get what I mean.
;-)

Arghhh.. "Belom tahu saper Mean girls"

2009-10-25T12:58:00.003+08:00

Okay..
If you guys wanna to know a story...
Here it goes...

Yesterday, I went to see Ahzrin at hospital with Hashik, Iskandar and Asri.

Ahzrin met an accident at -Not-to-be-known-place.
It was a last minutes plan.
Hashik called me in the morning.
Asking me, to follow him.
Meet them around 1100 a.m.
So, meet ahzrin . .

Went off around 1 hr later..
So, they went back home as Asri and Iskandar were tired.
Left me and Hashik.
Went to Qiji to eat at Centry Square.
And off to home.
Reached home at 4pm . .

So, I heard Expo had an IT sale.
Went along with parents.
Looked around.
Im so in love with Nikon Camera..
oh and and.... Osim!! ( Klau la aku dpt tu OSIM.. Fulamak! )
Really2 wanted to buy one.
Tapi, apakan daya...
Tunggu duit ku masok lah.

After looking around
My dad decided to have a drink at Al-kadir..
Saw Hashik's sister and her tunang
Eating at the coffee shop.

I was trying to get a place to sit.
SEKALI!!!
When I was about to sit down.
I didn't realised that the chair is at the edge of the platform.
Then I when.. KELAPAK!
Jatoh TERTONGGENG.
Yeah.. Laugh all u want.
Sakit seh.

The worst part is...
HASHIK SISTER NAMPAK LAH!
And and.. all the people pat coffee shop was like...
Ouwhhhhhhh!!! Then drg continue mkan..
Wah.. paisey giler babi lah.
Pulak tu. My mum tolong ketawe kan.
Yg adik2 aku pulak tkde reaction langsung.
Tak tahu nk tolong org tgh jatoh.

Hais..
Kesian aku..
My elbow was in pain la..
Till now tau.
Sekali patah eh?
Nak carik nurse lah...
Suro X-ray.

Oklah
Happy laughing..
:)

XOXO
Nadiah

2009-10-07T17:24:00.005+08:00

You're right.

I shouldn't have interfere in their whatsoever things.

Ended up, I myself will not get the credit.

Instead of it...

I've make a fool of myself.

Fuck You! Fuck You! Fuck You!

I've should listened to your advice.

I should have just ignored it.

Why am I so stupid...

I'm old enuf to think what right and what wrong.

I regret this.

I regret myself of being so stupid.

Because of you

I ignored what people think of me.

I stand up for your right..

I did what i suspose to do.

Being a good friend..

Being likely, your best friend

Maybe It's not me.

Enuf of saying.

Enuf of it!

But there only one thing for me to say...

FUCK OFF!!

It's the mistake I have to leave with..

XOXO

Nadiah

2009-10-06T16:14:00.003+08:00

Alert! Alert! Alert!

Sorry for my very very very late entry...

Been busy!

As usual..

3 weeks of my holiday nearly pass..

Going back to attachment in 5 days time..

How lazy!

Hari Raya has been great..

Biasalah.. Dpt duit collection kan.

Last friday, Jalan raya with my freaky friends.

FUN! FUN! FUN!

I must say.....

Pictures will be uploaded later...

XOXO

Love Nadiah

2009-09-05T15:43:00.002+08:00

Laptop!

Computer!

Are sending for repairment.

Sorry if I didnt have the time for any updates...

Anyway, Today's day is my BIRTHDAY....

20 this year...

My anniversary too...

Yeap...

Together with my birthday....

Still counting down... :)

Got to go now...

Bye..

2009-08-17T20:31:00.007+08:00

Updating...

Dating with BF was Amazing.

He bring me to the place that I didnt even know.

Which is... Hmmm
Entah la.. Doesn't know what the Name of the place.

Well, went out at 4.00pm that's was our first time Keluar lambt.

Usually, we always plan at 1.00pm la..
Panas2 terik.. Ape kejadah kan... :)

Then, Off we go to parkway parade.
I wanna find Nike bottle. Since I had $10 sportlink voucher
Why Not eh?! Buy something useful for school use. :)

Carik2 takde la..

Sportlink pat parkway takde. What a waste!

Well, what can I say..

Takde Sportslink.. So, we jalan2 see what can we shop.

Hashik bought me Ice-cream...

Macadamia Nut.. My Favourite.. Yum yumm..!

Thanks Baby..

Then, when to buy Aunty Anne...

Since we both are hungry..

Planning to eat at East Coast PaRk

But....

Salah Jalan la... Hashik la..

So degil.. I say this way.. He say that way..

Kan da sesat.. Argument had on the way..

Pastu, Since we are on the way at Bedok.

Tell hashik, Makan pat Bedok Simpang sudah..

This time.. I lead the way.

Dia diam2 bawak motor suaaaa...

So, BEDOK SIMPANG here I come..

Carik parking.. Biasa la kan.. Susah sgt.

Stress ke....

Then after eating.

Remember just now, when I said that he bring me to a place that

I had never been before.

Yeah...
It's actually is a surprise for me.

Which I didnt know
He didnt even told me. He wanted to bring me there.

Cause I tot of going to beach

After eating..

He really surprise me..

It's a beautiful place.. And I love it..

That's a bridge.
With sea underneath it..

Macam Jetty la gitu...

Susah sgt la explain.

But it's really Beautiful

Sorry la..

Gambar tak lawa.

Hashik's Hair is Messy..

I know..

2009-08-05T19:16:00.004+08:00

Looking at my olden days pictures.
When I was in Secondary School.
With my 7 besties..
How I miss them so much..
Hey, I miss us alot..
I hope we could see each other often.

I miss Faezah and Raudah the most..
There's alot of things we should catch up lah.

Need alot of story telling together eh Ejah..

Raudah... Lots of catching up to do..
:)

Aslina, Raudah, Aini Mole, Faezah and Aini Ona...

I miss you so much...

I donno why, I felt like this..
Miss korg so much..
I know it's odd..
But, when looking at all my letters
Which Mr.Sim given to us..

That's makes me MISS all my Friends..

I know..
I'm so the JIWANG...
But, hey....
If u know this feeling...
Im sure you would understand..
XOXO
Nadiah... :)

2009-08-01T17:19:00.008+08:00

I've been craving Long John Sliver for like 3 days.

It's been a long time I didn't eat Long John Sliver

Since, Baby BubbleGum is working ..

Why not, eat with my ITE friends.

So much FUN!

It was on Friday.

Then it's a last minutes outing with all my besties!

That's was even double FUN!

Faezah's plan..

Well, basically.... It's working..

It's a poor thing that

Raudah couldnt follow.

If not, it's a complete Group.

I'm happy to see them Happy.

Especially, Faezah...

Well, Ejah... You should think about what I've told you..
Photos will be upload once I got it..

Last Thursday...

I had a mini fair at ITE College East.

We sell....

ICE POPS! NUTTELLA ROLLS! SAUSAGE BUN!

It's a successful one.

Actually. It's a life skill thingy.

Which I have done it when I was in Electronics.

I'm just helping them out

with the selling... :)

I know I'm a helpful Girl.. ;)

2009-07-19T15:57:00.004+08:00

Sorry again... I've not been updating for few months now.

Life have not been good towards me..

Well, day by day things have becaming better and better.
Since, I'm mature enough to face it thru..

For the few months I've been doing school work and once

I reach home.

There I go..

In lalaa Land.. Getting ready for the next new day.

That's the routine of my life.

Everyday.. Every week..

I've only met my BF only for important reason.

If not, we'll always talk on the phone.

It's good enough for me.

I do really miss him alot.

Last week I was supose to meet all my friends for dinner.

Indeed, I couldn't make it..

So, sorry Besties....

Yeah.. I'm having such a bad time, bad day..

Everything's a bad day.

Nothing to share..

So, I wont talk too much..

XOXO.

2009-06-24T22:52:00.005+08:00

Never did I thought that I'll be close to this bunch of peeps..

It's an awesome feeling to know them.

Well, even tho that they are so so much younger than me I just

couldn't believe that I would mingle with them so well.

Even all my personal things, I could share with them.

Like seriously..

Just can't believe it...

I'm blessed to have a bunch of friends like them.

Even It's only for 3 months..

I just couldn't imagine how can we became so close...

Thanks to them... :)

Wearing scrub suit....

2009-06-14T20:58:00.002+08:00

Counting down...

2 more weeks to go!

And... Walah!!

School's starting..

School: Nothing much to say. It's unpredictable..

I'm not to sure either what's gonna happen in School.

I proud to say that : I MISS SCHOOL SO MUCH! :)

2009-05-31T21:09:00.004+08:00

For the past 1 week.. My attachment was hectic.

I got problems with one of the staff there..

She was so irritating... IRRITATING SPECIMEN YOU!!

I can't really explain what's happening there..

But if you can see, many of the staff there also hate her..

TOTALLY! Hate her..

Why?!

Because she's irritating la..

So In the middle of shift, we did something.. Something GOOD"BAD"..?

Kite2 AJE lah tahu eh krg2!

So, I really had a bad day.. To be exact, the whole 5 days..

Speaking of which...

BF too had a bad day...

BF having high fever and sore throat.

His bike is being sabotage by don't know who!!

Langgar Lari Lah tu...!

Besar peh !#$%@$^!!

It's quite bad.. Couldn't even start his engine...

His motor wiring all haywire already..

Scratch here and there..

Then, some more he need to pay for all the damage.

So irresponsible people here nowadays!!

!@#$$%%^

Pity him so much.

So on Weekends..

We didn't do nothing much. Planning to go out, but motor no HAVE!

Meet him for awhile.

We really had a long talk together..

We miss that so much, after we were so busy with School and Work..

At last we had our time together...

it's a long chit chat..

We miss that for so Long..

Looking at him...

Well, I love him so much....

So! With then...

I end up with that.. :P.

Love Nadiah.

2009-05-22T19:35:00.006+08:00

I know, I've not been updating this while...

Problems has been coming in and out in my life.

I don't know, should I explain this or not.

Well, my few months is okay. Attachment and all.

I got 2 weeks of vacation

Because of swine flu attack....
So, between those dates of vacation.

I went out alot.

Meeting my BF....

Going riding with Iskandar and his GF.

Go ECP.

Had a walk.

Eat.

And many many more...

Photos plz...

After my vacation...

I had my attachment in Tampines Polyclinic.

FUN?

Okay2 lah..

Hmm, I think that's all..

Nothing to update..

I'll try to update often aite!

Love You..

2009-04-26T11:25:00.000+08:00

Dreams Shattered into pieces..

My life is not going to be perfect anymore....

2009-04-19T21:12:00.002+08:00

Updating...
Even since my attachment started, I became lazy to update my blog.
I'll try to update as much as I could.

Hospital.. Great experience.
Love the environment, the patients and everything.
I'm trying as much as I could to be an excellent nurse.
So, please support me.
OK? :)

During my holidays, I did so much things..
Spending time with Hashik, friends, old classmates...
It was FUN FUN FUN.

OK... Have you ever encounter?
You've met this person somewhere, and then you had a chemistry with him/her
then you spent time the whole night with him/her
And then, the next day....
You hate her/him... You practically insulted him/her.
And then, you leave him/her?
Get me?

I even encounter this so many times.
Yesterday, I went out with Hashik
Visited Tampines 1 at Tampines "DUH!"
And I meet this long lost friend of mine.
He happened to be my cousin boyfriend, best friend.
He was my 1st ex in Dunman Secondary School when I was in Secondary 1.
My closest friend will know him.
He actually ask for my number IN FRONT of Hashik, Hashik's sister and my cousin.
DAMN!! DAMN!! DAMN!!
Well, I was smart enough to say NO!
And walk away from him
and hold Hashik's Hand In front of him.

Hmm.. Did I do wrong?
Cause at that point of time, I was so MALU and I doesn't know what to do.
At the same time, I felt so embarrassed toward Hashik's sister.
Nasib...... Nasib......

2009-04-02T15:32:00.002+08:00

Last night, I was on the verge to break up with my boyfriend..
For the past few months
All he did was scold me, argue with me, make small issue to a big issue, keeping himself quiet all the time when we're on the phone and can you believe it?! Even while we're talking we can get stupid stuff to fight.
I'm just tired of it.
And yesterday, I say all the things that I wanted to say.
Now then, he realise his mistakes.
Now then, he knows what I felt.
Now then, he understands me well.

I'm not saying that I want him to be 100% prefect for me.
I know everyone in the world is not prefect.
Even I'm not prefect.
Know what! I'm not saying this anymore.
What's over mean it's over..

Now I cracking my brain how am I gonna meet my friends tomorrow.
No One is at home.
EXPECT Fairuz.
My dad and My mum is going somewhere "I dOn't know where"
And I suggested them to bring Fairuz along,
But they doesn't want to
Cause they had some important what la I DON'T KNOE!
SHIT LAH..
I told Joe about it, then he told me to meet under my block.
But, in the other hands I doesn't want to make their life difficult
Cuz they had to travel all the way here.
For my girls they had to take Bus.
Hais..... I felt so guilty!
Sorry guys.. :'(

I'll make an effort.. I promise.
So, yesterday I went to ZOOOOOO.........

2009-03-31T11:06:00.006+08:00

APPARENTLY PEOPLE DO
IDOITIC THINGS ALL THE TIME!

How can I not fallen in love with them?
he is super super HOT!!
OMG....!